Hmm... I'm quite irrational about spiders and bees/wasps, and I'm scared when I think of what my sons face in this world; but...
my biggest fear is abandonment. This thread corrodes almost all my life, since I find myself terrified that someone -- anyone -- will disapprove of me. Never mind that I never met the person in question before and probably never will again; the fear kicks in, and my decision-making goes haywire.
Mind you, I've gotten better through the years; I often go ahead and do things anyway, like take filmmaking classes when my hubby disapproves, -- but it causes me to put away interesting ventures I've started, not follow-through -- or I proceed, but at a cost.
I'd much rather walk through a rattlesnake and spider infested canyon (with bees in) than, say, go up to someone who could help me with my (not-yet-extant) film career and ask for advice/help. I do it anyway and then hide in a corner for 2 days reading Tolkien. Or, say, ask my hubby for $$ to take a film class...
and yes, this is probably why I haven't started posting in Highlander Castle yet. Letting people see my -fiction- is much harder than letting them see me. I can deal with people maybe not liking me for who I am, but my characters?!? Terrifying.
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Where now the horse and the rider? Where is the horn that was blowing? Where is the helm and the hauberk, and the bright hair flowing? Where is the hand on the harpstring, and the red fire glowing? Where is the spring and the harvest and the tall corn growing? They have passed like rain on the mountain, like a wind in the meadow The days have gone down in the West behind the hills into shadow Who shall gather the smoke of the dead wood burning Or behold the flowing years from the Sea returning? ~ J.R.R. Tolkien
SilverDragon, I was afraid to write anything when I first started posting here. I was afraid to type into a thread cause I'd sound stupid, really! Now they want to shut me up. go figure hua?
Decide what you want to do, set your mind up and just go for whatever makes you happy... to heck with anyone else...you are here only once so enjoy your life.
I can tell you would never intentionally hurt anyone else. So lighten up on yourself... Annabelle
Silverdragon! You are one of the people on here that I have really enjoyed getting to know! You know I had to do the same thing one time. Do some things with my so-called art career that my hubby was against. As you know, part of being an artist is marketing your work. This meant I had to travel a lot and do showings which left him home a lone a lot because he owned his own business and couldn't leave it. But he let me do what I felt I had to do and he got over it. And I appreciated that cause I learned a lot about myself at that time. We have to do the things that are important to us cause if we let others decide for us, we will harbor resentment towards them.
One of my closest girlfriends who lived in Atlanta when I did, at then the age of 46, gave up everything to move to No Hollywood to seek her dream of becoming an actress. It has been a life-long dream for her and she finally made some sacrifices and took the guts to go for it. I wish you much success in your film career!
Annabelle, um, er, well ... I found out a long time ago there ain't enough whiskey. I stick to coffee these days...
CelticRose, ... Yeah. I made up my mind that this is the year. If moving out is what I have to do, then that's what I have to do. I'm partly hoping it doesn't come to that... but also, I'm partly hoping it does. Either way, I'm moving forward.
What are my fears? Oh, a question that is hard to answer. Not because I would fear nothing, that´s not true. A man without fear is a fool.... No, it´s because it´s hard to talk about fears. I fear to lose those I love, fear to have to spent my live in loneliness and, not at least, that the world I live in (I mean my little world around me and the big world we all live in) could be only be ruled by war, hate and violence..... I fear to be only a nameless person in a anonymous world, to be a number in a list..... I could continue this list for the next hour....so I stop here....
CelticRose, ... Yeah. I made up my mind that this is the year. If moving out is what I have to do, then that's what I have to do. I'm partly hoping it doesn't come to that... but also, I'm partly hoping it does. Either way, I'm moving forward.
North Hollywood, eh? My neighbor!
Well Silverdragon I didn't want to say anything but my actress friend ended up leaving her husband to pursue her dream because he was so against it. I hope that doesn't happen to you.
Snakes. Without a doubt, snakes. Heights, spiders, water, shopaholic wife, none of that stuff bothers me. But put even a green garter snake in front of me, and I am filled with the uncontrollable urge to pound it until it is no longer recognizable. I know intellectually that they are good for the ecosystem, but if they want to remain good for the ecosystem, they need to stay away from me.
Just my tuppence.
Andy
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Just my tuppence.
Andy
Never drink to excess; you might shoot at a tax collector and miss. - Robert A. Heinlein
Quis custodiet ipsos custodes.
TANSTAAFL
If a person doesn't believe in something, he'll soon believe in anything. - G. K. Chesterton
April 15th, heights, bees (will most likely die if stung) running out of insulin, not being able to work or play drums, clowns, redheads, American bloodlust.....
Snakes. Without a doubt, snakes. Heights, spiders, water, shopaholic wife, none of that stuff bothers me. But put even a green garter snake in front of me, and I am filled with the uncontrollable urge to pound it until it is no longer recognizable. I know intellectually that they are good for the ecosystem, but if they want to remain good for the ecosystem, they need to stay away from me.
Just my tuppence.
Andy
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I must agree -- Snakes. I can't see them even in a movie or a picture in a book or magazine. I mow the lawn on a lawn tractor and go into hysterics if I see one even then. I scream, try not to throw up, and all but go into convulsions. No pounding on them for me. Guess that's considered and unreasonable fear.
I also don't like clowns, but not to the extent of snakes!!! I like jesters, tho.
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JaneyMae
Tangle Goblinwitch: She is only seen in the enchanted moment between sleep and waking
"Never miss a chance to shut up." Will Rogers
Leprechauns, castles, good luck and laughter. Lullabies, dreams and love ever after. A thousand welcomes when anyone comes... That's the Irish for You!