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maggiemahone1  |
 Posted: 10-Apr-2002, 02:56 PM
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High Queen of Ireland
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Mel, I'm so sorry that your down and out. Sometimes if isn't one thing it's two to get us down. Sometimes just looking in the face of my daughters and my gdaughters is enough for me to be so thankful. Pick yourself up, and be determined that the next day will be better than the one past. Take one day at a time. Don't let life get you down. I really hope you feel better and can be happy. 
I'm sending you some  and  . I hope you enjoy.
maggiemahone1
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| Falachaidh |
Posted: 17-Apr-2002, 11:29 PM
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Knight of the Round Table
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I don't know if women are more susceptible to depression or not. We seem to have a million of chemical things happening to us. At the height, or worse, i should say, things were very very bad for me. I debated about posting this, but I think every woman should know about this issue/problem.
I decided at 25 years old to go on birth control for the first time in my life. I always had what doctors would call 'abnormal' cycles, but I was used to it, and that was life.
I got divorced, had to find a real job/career and moved across the state to live with friends becuase i was in the middle of paying off my credit report to find out I was in major jeopardy of being layed off. To "save" my job, they stuck me in the filing room and there I stayed until I left for Oz.
I got depressed, and already having gone through that in childhood, I knew how to deal with it. What made it worse was the depo-provera shot I took. I bled for three months, then stopped for two months; meanwhile I was being told that it will all work out and the more shots I take, the more 'normal' my cycle would become. Every three months, I was scheduled and went in for my second shot. The staff told me it was normal to experience excessive cycles. So, I believed them.
Maybe some of you know that during a cycle, there is a severe loss of protein - and for me, I get dizzy, I shake and just get totally discombobulated. Unless I eat roughage like salads in the morning and a steak for lunch, it gets worse throughout the day. I'm sure you can imagine how I was being for those three months of non-stop heavyness. I was very depressed.
My insurance plan did not cover b.c., so I was at the guide of Planned Parenthood. -I had ultimate faith in them because I believe in what they stand for-
I had done all the research and read all the pamplets they gave me about depo-provera. I knew it was only on the market for 5 years. They didn't tell me there wasn't enough research done with it, and they were still testing the hormone in this form. I was not informed that my problem was extremely common. I was told, however, that if I decided to stop, it would take anywhere from 6 months to a year to get out of my system... depending how many injections I took.
Because I was feeling depressed and so horrible, i missed two of my best friend's weddings, I miss out on going out in general. I slept quite a bit and didn't even bother to log into the computer because I knew I had to talk to people. I basically disappeared from some of my good friends. When they finally caught me, they asked me if it was worth it.
I decided to go to my regular doctor. She prescribed me the pill and told me to not take my next scheduled shot (the 3rd one). I was very uneasy about her recommendation. I asked her why she wasn't treating the problem; which she said if she treated the symptoms, the problem would go away.
I got two other second opinions which they backed up my doctor's advice. Still feeling unsure, I went to my mom's holistic doctor/chiropractor and asked her advice.
She said if it was her, she wouldn't do it. But she doesn't drink pop/soda or eat McDonald's either. I followed her personal advice and threw away my prescrption paper and didn't go in for the 3rd shot.
I thought things had settled down, after being extremely overactive, and sure enough, I had a normal, scheduled cycle. Exception: it was twice per month. At least it was clockwork and never took me by surprise unlike the previous few months.
I just crossed my fingers and hoped it would just all work out. Afterall, it just had to run its course and get out of my system.
It was exactly one year to the date which I took my first injection that I experienced a normal healthy cycle. It's been two months that this has happened. I am very worried and a bit scared, but I just pray to god that this is it...back to normal for me.
The depo had triggered some other problems for me. I became anemic and developed low blood sugar, which can develop into diabetes. My metabolism was very high and now it is at a much slower rate. I also have had a swelling of the thyroid. I also gained 35 pounds within one month (so all of my size 4s had to be given away). I had to stop dancing because I was in so much pain. I had so much water retention in my legs and abdomen, my organs were pushing against one another when i danced. I always had to elevate my legs because when I layed them flat, I had sharp pins going through them. I never felt fully rested. It was just a horrible experience. Once I stopped, my water retention went down quite a bit and I was able to return to dance. I grew excessively tired and could only dance the cut 4 steps instead of the 6 steps normally. because I was always still dizzy, the sword dance was almost impossible to do, as well as the highland reels. On top of all of this, I was extremely frustrated knowing I couldn't do my passion -let alone compete.
The pain in my legs went away, and promptly came back my shin splints (I've had them since I was 14). At least I knew how to deal with them, but I wasn't quite as bouyant as I normally danced. It was due to the extra weight. I went from a size 4 to an 8, sometimes 10 in women's within one month. I am a healthy eater and hardly eat junk. (actually this trip has been a lot of junk-the most I've eaten in my entire life!
Right before this trip, I bought some new clothes, all size 6s which fit very nice. I'm now finding some of those new clothes are a bit baggy on me. I don't ever want to drop to a 4 again <--way too thin, but I am happy where I'm at.
I feel healthy, and since I've been back at dance lessons, I've been able to dance a full fling, sword and reels. It took me almost 6 months to get back to that level where I was before all this crap started.
(for those keeping track: March, year 1 I took the first shot. July year 1 the second shot. Doctors visits early October, year 1. Did not take the third shot scheduled October, Year 1. November-December Year 1 everything went haywire.
January, Year 2 i danced the full fling, swords, trews and reels without stopping for the first time in a year.
March, Year 2 first normal cycle; i also competed and i felt I danced well and finished my steps.)
All of this because I thought I needed to do something just about every woman does. I think I'll take my chances for now on. Seems scary to say that, but being responsible for your own body and actions is more important than trying to make a "short-cut". At least I'm not depressed anymore 
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| welshman |
 Posted: 18-Apr-2002, 03:55 AM
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Servant
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Joined: 27-Nov-2001
Zodiac: Birch
Realm: North Queensferry. Fife. Scotland
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Mal
I think a lot of us suffer fro depression at sometime or other
After several operations to my knee, I had to retire on medical grounds. My leg hurt, I was in pain both mentally & physically. I was angry & upset at not being able to do the things I'd always done, cycling, running, walking, playing rugby etc etc. I inernalised the anger, but it kept on breaking out by my swings in mood, and nightmares when asleep. My wife urged me to go to the Doctors. I refused at first, thinking that the stigma of admitting I wasn't well mentally, would mean that people would think less of me. But Lindsay eventually persuaded me to see the doc., who was very kind a responsive. She suggested getting therapy, but again I refused, thinking I didn't need it but evenually I went.
I got a lot of support from friends and colleagues, I also had a little presciton help (prozac) & that helped immensly.
Eventually I started seeing things in a different light, was more positive, I started to teach myself how to use the computer, I tookk our dogs out for walks and began to feel better about myself.
You just can't pick yourelf up, nad dust yourself down when your feeling so low, you have to accept that you need help to get yourself back together, there's not always an easy solution.
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Pob Hwyl
Mal Evans
http://www.fourteenfalls.com
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| Aon_Daonna |
 Posted: 20-Apr-2002, 01:24 PM
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The Wolf Lady
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I think now it's me who needs to be cheered up. It seems like my great grandfather won't survive this night. 
We just received a phonecall from the hospital where he spent his last days.
I know that his life was hard, especially since the death of his wife last year and I know that his time has come but I'm still sad.
I have known him nearly 20 years of my life which seems a mighty long time to me.
In the garden of his house I made my first tries in walking, I played with his sheep and I saw him and my great grandmother still loving each other. They had a great impact on my life and I doubt I would be the same if I never knew them.
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