This past year has been a year of reality in a form I never knew. Read that at about 25 you change completely. I have been 25 half way through and I must say I feel like everything in my whole life has changed. And I dont take to change very well, maybe cause my life has never been so solid. Death has been in my thoughts, it is my way out if I should need, and I mean really need it. But for tonight I thought about the things that make life worth holding onto just a little while longer.
Looking up into the dark, purple sky seeing lightning streak across and feeling the light cool breeze blowing through my hair
The way my 5 year old uses her hands to talk to me when she is excited
The way( His) eyes are so blue
Watching the older man at the food store shop for food by himself, he looks so soft, humble and yet kinda lonely while all the while having this sweetness to him
Standing in the rain, the warm rain in the middle of SanAantonio
looking out over the land and seeing nothing but beautiful green rolling feilds with a mixture of colors in the sky behind
That warm feeling I get deep down inside when my true love says thankyou for all I do to make him happy
Realizing some may care about me when once I thought they did not
That certain song that comes on and gets into your soul
Feeling Jehovah God near me when pouring your soul out to him
A near gray/black sky ahead/ the sunlight shinning behind casting brightness on the rainbow that is close in front of me
The airport when going to see your love then being embraced in a hug so tight you can feel every heartbeat
Watching a neighbors cat roll around on it's back happily
Realizing my hair is hitting it's almost long hair mark
Eating Bryers mint choclate chip ice cream-but wait thats not all--mixing it till it melts then eating the mint chunks last, ummm
Waking in the middle of the night, gazing over to see through the moonlight your true love sleeping sound next to you always within your loving reach
Remembering when my dad thoughtI was the best thing to the point he would make a fool of himself just to get a laugh from me
Having someone laugh at the jokeI made even though I wasnt trying to be funny, cause if I were of been trying to be funny I wouldnt have been, but good to crack a good one now and again
You are right, there is so much in this world that makes life worth living. Don't forget the fields that are blue as the sea with bluebonnets. I miss those. Living up here in Alaska. I have a Texas Highway with pics of the wildflowers of Texas and I have to look at it every spring. As we get older we learn to take nothing for granet.
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"They That Wait Upon The LORD, Shall Renew Their Strength, They Shall Mount Up With Wings As Eagels, They Shall Run, And Not Be Werry; They Shall Walk, And Not Faint." ISAIAH 40:31
Things that make life worth living? I think that way forget the simple things in our day to day, hectic lives. We get so caught up in the here and now that we almost forget what ,truly , brings happiness to our lives.
The way my 5 year old boy smiles from ear to ear and hugs me like a bear when he comes over.
The way the smell of honey suckle follows me on my walk to work everyday.
The beauty of the moon at night and the blessing that I live far enough in the country that "light pollution" doesn't block that wonderous orb.
The sound of "I love you" whispered in my ear to wake me in the mornings.
A good, clean, close shave while bathing in a nice, hot, relaxing bath.
Remembering my brother's smile.
Writing a story that comes to life on its own and creates itself. And, all you can do is help it into this world like a midwife.
Listening to the crickets at dusk.
Listening to the utter silence that exists the moment after the last rays of light disappear and just before the moon's rays emerge. It's a magic anticipation.
The anticipation before kissing the one you love
I could go on..but I think I've said enough
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'Dying for being different is still better than living as a Sheep'-anon
Northern Lights in winter and Midnight Sun in the summer. Seeing pictures of my grand daughter when she was only mins. old. Seeing her for the first time in person when she was 6 months. Watch my youngest daughter and her true love and rembembering what love was like when it was so new. Walking in the woods and feeling the presents of God in the stillness. Watching a bull moose in the middle of a creek with his head down eating. Watching him raise his head and the water that's running from his antlers glissen in the sun. So breath taking that you forget to get your camera. Watching Eagles over head dancing on the wind. Watching your daughter slip and fall because she's watching them and not where her feet are.
Having my 10 year old daughter sit on my lap, kiss my cheek and say, "I love you, Daddy". Watching my sons playing hockey, laying on a really good check or scoring a goal. Waking up in the morining and realizing my wife is holding me. Playing with my pipe band with drum scores I wrote, especially with a big drum corps. Remembering the Rockies, what they looked like at sunrise in the winter. Driving down a road in the fall past big, old trees, with their leaves looking like they're on fire. Cuddling on the couch with my wife. Laying in bed on Christmas morning, listening to my children's reactions when they go downstairs. Big smile there!
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Cheers! Todd
Normal is a relative term. For some reason it is not a term my relatives use to describe me.
The moment when you give a little smile to a stranger and he's smiling back
The moment you hold your newborn in the arms and you feel the miracle and mystery of life
To see my sons growing up and finding their own way
To wake up in the morning and another day is given to you
To walk barefoot through the grass in the very early morning, when the dew drops on it are shining like diamonds
The beauty of music
Those precious moments when time seems to stand still and your soul is wide opened
The magic of nature
Friends at your side
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"Now here's my secret", said the fox, "it is very simple. It is only with ones heart that one can see clearly. What is essential is invisible to the eye."
("The Little Prince" by Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
"The soul would have no rainbow, if the eye had no tears." (Native American Proverb)